Sunlight and Shadows

Finding poetry in star dust, sunbeams, and passing clouds

Category: Frustration

  • Slippery

    Sometimes it seems that all my tires do is spin

    No matter how I go, I cannot ever win

    I’m accelerating on a bed of ice

    And get stuck even deeper however many tries

    I have zero traction when I try to make a turn

    Direction is not changeable until I crash and burn

    I press the brakes, there’s nothing there, the pedal hits the floor

    I’m skidding, sliding, swerving just to keep from hurting more

    I can see where I should go, I just can’t find out how

    There is too much snow and ice to leave where I am now

    Until I realize, it’s my tires, and get out of my car

    Can’t change the road but I can change what all my actions are

    On skis I learn to glide and ride together with the snow

    I can turn and steer with ease toward where I want to go

    I pick up speed, I slow and stop, I’m fully in control

    The snow and ice no longer block, but help me reach the goal

    ,

  • Pressure

    On the edge of an explosion

    So much packed down now inside

    Tiptoe by to keep it quiet

    Push it forward, let it slide

    Too many words to decipher

    Too much meaning I can’t decode

    But it’s pressing, moving faster

    Taking me down some unknown road

    Unfamiliar, overwhelming

    Trying to sort out what is real

    Too good, too bad to know for sure

    Too much judged now by how I feel

    There is a way to sort it out

    To let the facts and feelings fit

    Pass through without an explosion

    Find peace within, inside of it

    ,

  • Walls

    An avalanche of endless walls

    Everywhere I turn

    So many climbs, so many falls

    Will I ever learn

    A false façade of fake success

    Tempts me to keep on

    All hollow – break through and regress

    Just another con

    How bleak life looks if there’s no hope

    To escape these walls

    Reduced each day to try to cope

    With the pain of falls

    But there is still a lifeline rope

    Listen when He calls

    ,

  • Some Day

    Chasing after something with every breath I spend

    A great, elusive something up there just ahead

    If I can only make it around the nearest bend

    I’ll catch up to this phantom, escape all that I dread

    Chasing after somewhere that everything is good

    And in this perfect somewhere my life falls into place

    My role, my world, my plan for life is clearly understood

    And every puzzle piece is fit so neatly in its space

    Chasing after someday when all these things are found

    I’ll finally stop searching and enjoy life all the way

    Complete with love, success, and health – perfection all around

    I’ll have no fear, regret, or doubt to darken any day

    Chasing after something, somewhere, somehow, some day

    When all along, it’s been right here, if I will only stay

    ,

  • Running in Circles

    Slamming up against the wall

    Bouncing back just like a ball

    Running fast from what’s inside

    Just to hit the other side

    I’m stuck in here, I can’t get out

    Boxed in by my fear and doubt

    Prison walls inside my head

    Thoughts so deep they can’t be said

    Afraid to let in any light

    Lest my fragile dreams take flight

    If I keep them locked away

    They still could come somehow, some day

    I just imagine what should be

    And filter in reality

    Float each hope up to the top

    Knowing bubbles always pop

    Round and round this track I go

    Endless loops of high and low

    Unless, until I find the key

    To open up the door for me

    ,

  • Stalled

    Drowning in words, but nothing to say

    Wanting to act, but running away

    Knowing these feelings will drive me insane

    But still I hold on tight to the pain

    Feeling so bad, but not knowing why

    Looking for help, but too scared to try

    Trying to look at what is inside

    But fearing my world will just be denied

    This chaos inside will tear me apart

    Until I can find the truth in my heart