I am fighting
Fighting a war I didn’t begin
Fighting a battle from within
Fighting and determined to win
I was a prisoner
A prisoner of a troubled past
A prisoner of the role I was cast
A prisoner but not the last
I am fighting
Fighting to escape tyranny
Fighting for who I was meant to be
Fighting hard for victory
I will be free
Free to love without demand
Free to give a helping hand
Free to take my own true stand
All the light we cannot see
Yet fills our blood with yearning so
The pull of new discovery
The faith in things we do not know
We press on sure to find the door
The innate longing to be free
The light that led me to a crack
Where I could see but could not reach
The slap that caused me to pull back
And listen to what it would teach
The crushing truth on hopes of youth
I grew to stand within the breach
Sunrise dawn’s brave beams of light
To bathe the soul from night’s dark wake
The tumult of the storm set right
The midnight watch we each must make
To find our place, to run our race
And build a love that cannot break
How do I find the way from here
Past this pain and the chain of fear?
Why is the cliff edge taunting so near
Rutted track as I try to steer
Threatening all that I once saw clear?
Sun turns to mist and stars to mist
Shards of ice in a trembling fist
Eyes that yet burn with frozen tear
Search for answers in troubled past
Hope to find a way home at last
Here I wait for the light of dawn
Fighting through til the fog is gone
No matter what, I will hold on
Through this painful ponderous load
No matter what, I will go on
No matter how long is the road
When the world is crumbling beneath your feet
No path to go forward, nowhere to retreat
Plans go up in smoke, life’s not what you know
Where do you run to, where do you go?
When you’ve fallen down so many times you can’t count
Too tired, too broken, but still battles mount
It feels like you’re losing more fights than you’ve won
Where do you find the strength to keep on?
When the road just keeps turning and winding so steep
The obstacles mount, it’s near too big a leap
You wonder if you’re even on the right road
Where do you find new speed when you’ve slowed?
There’s only one place of sufficient grace
He’ll walk with you, whatever you face
I’m fenced inside a cage again
Trapped in fear and isolation
Self-destructed my safety guide
Burned all the bridges to the outside
So now I rail against the bars
Resist, shrink back against old scars
I’m stuck, I realize now too late
I’m lost and hopeless in this fate
No – loss is losing those I love
Concern and care will rise above
The pit of greed, self-pity, fail
I will break free of this trapped jail
You’re so bad, you’re so messed up
You live to manufacture pain
Your only wish is others’ hurt
To take their loss for your own gain
You lie in wait to pounce and steal
While hidden in the dark of lies
You strike to plunder and destroy
Another’s life your greatest prize
You have no shame or guilt at all
The world owes you for all you’ve lost
Others should hurt and suffer too
Revenge has a bottomless cost
