Sunlight and Shadows

Finding poetry in star dust, sunbeams, and passing clouds

Category: Heartache

  • Hard Road

    It hurts to keep on falling down

    To spend time getting off the ground

    I wish for perfect, no mistakes

    But now I see the time it takes

    Until the skill is learned and found

    It hurts to try the best I know

    Then pangs of judgement haunt me so

    I want to always call it right

    But I can’t tell from this new height

    Always the certain way to go

    It hurts to walk in paths so new

    Break in a trail where thickets grew

    I look for markers of the way

    But I can’t in the safe place stay

    And reach the place I should be too

    Sometimes it feels so hard to do

    But the only way forward is through

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  • Footsteps

    Walking in the footsteps I took so long ago

    Looking back through years past on what I didn’t know

    Pondering life’s meaning, how moments come and go

    Feeling all those things now I couldn’t feel back then

    Wondering the reason that I am here again

    Thinking of the choices, of what else could have been

    Letting go of questions of why and how and when

    Stepping through the splinters of hurt that still are here

    Lighting up past darkness so I no longer fear

    Storing up the good things, the moments I hold dear

    Turning toward the sunshine so shadows disappear

    Walking in new footsteps as future pathways grow

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  • Heartbreak

    A broken hope of taken dreams

    The loss of worlds we make in dreams

    The truth I thought that I could trust

    Turned out be mistaken dreams

    The world is crumbling round my heart

    I fall beneath my shaken dreams

    I vow to never dream again

    Bury the past’s forsaken dreams

    My heart stands fast, will not let go

    Its broken shards awaken dreams

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  • Some Day

    Chasing after something with every breath I spend

    A great, elusive something up there just ahead

    If I can only make it around the nearest bend

    I’ll catch up to this phantom, escape all that I dread

    Chasing after somewhere that everything is good

    And in this perfect somewhere my life falls into place

    My role, my world, my plan for life is clearly understood

    And every puzzle piece is fit so neatly in its space

    Chasing after someday when all these things are found

    I’ll finally stop searching and enjoy life all the way

    Complete with love, success, and health – perfection all around

    I’ll have no fear, regret, or doubt to darken any day

    Chasing after something, somewhere, somehow, some day

    When all along, it’s been right here, if I will only stay

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  • Life

    The letter I wrote to a world that didn’t write back

    The light I found that only led me to a crack

    The call I made to a phone that was off the hook

    The dreams I dreamed that only happen in a book

    A stormy life of springtime joys and winter pain

    A treacherous life of highs to fall back down again

    A hard life that takes great faith to believe

    A weary life of small victories you achieve

    Broken tears of soul-searching depths of pain

    Bitter tears of disappointment, let down again

    Shameful tears of empty hope you once believed

    Weary tears of painstaking, tenuous gains achieved

    Treasure this great, fragile life that is ours

    For only in darkness can you see the stars

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  • Running in Circles

    Slamming up against the wall

    Bouncing back just like a ball

    Running fast from what’s inside

    Just to hit the other side

    I’m stuck in here, I can’t get out

    Boxed in by my fear and doubt

    Prison walls inside my head

    Thoughts so deep they can’t be said

    Afraid to let in any light

    Lest my fragile dreams take flight

    If I keep them locked away

    They still could come somehow, some day

    I just imagine what should be

    And filter in reality

    Float each hope up to the top

    Knowing bubbles always pop

    Round and round this track I go

    Endless loops of high and low

    Unless, until I find the key

    To open up the door for me

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